CherlnIDA

OMG I am so sorry I have not replied to any notes yet, but I have no idea what's wrong with dA but it just doesn't seem to work well on my new tablet.  >_< I have tried rebooting my tablet, reloading the note page...Nada. It's broken af and my tablet is up to date too. I am just so sorry for the delays and I will give replies soon as. I also sent a report to dA about it, but...no reply yet. Still waiting for that email. 
I'm on Discord and I will give it so you can contact me or talk on my journal or page. Note  Rps are on hold.  
I am very sorry about this. >_<

Hey peeps it`s me and I am so sorry for the weird ass grammar on this, I usually try my best to be tidy but my new boyfriend bought me an android voyager pro and it`s pretty much half tablet and closer to a mini tablet. I`m not used to it and I am not used to its functions; the fact that I am able to get back on my dA is a blessing enough thanks to him. I am sorry for my long absence, the two years absence was hard on me and not forgiving because dA has declared my Safari browser obselete. I have been trying really hard to get back or eventually get one but 2016-18 has been unforgiving due to my mother and us being low on money. My gallery is my child and it still feels out of reach currently because on an android tablet differs from my ipad. I am not sure if I can write stories or fanfics properly on here but I can try. This will be my new workbench until I can live with my boyfriend, Liam, in the uk. I am not fully back and will still need help putting and correcting stories into my gallery. But I am here and feel jaded, I went through a lot of emotional and mental pain, my depression worsened with no access to my gallery for about 3 years. But I will try to make this my normal. I have missed so many friend and wept so much. But I am back.

Cherilyn

NightMagican here with a message from Cher. 

Watchers, I am so so sorry, I have been working on an older version of Safari and dA has very forcefully shoved me out of using it again because my browser is outdated. This wouldn't be a problem if I was using a newer model iPad but I don't have that luxury either. This iPad has been with me since 2014 and have been using the Notes feature to write my stories in and it's easy to copy/paste to stash. That hard work has hit the fan, and I am not allowed access until I get a new tablet or until dA stops being a snobby dick and allows older versions to be compatible with it again; until then, I might go through this the old fashioned way, the last time, dA was dicking around with compatiblities: I'll just have friends copy/paste and send my works via FB messages; or something like that. I can't complain on this to dA on my own as I'm no longer allowed to access it, so feel free to report that this is not in any way productive to those who are not privileged to have a new model and new browser, you're kicking users out. This is gonna be an endurance test for me since writing stories and fics is my lifeblood...I'm stumped right now until I get a new tablet or something gives.

Man, Exede has been REAALLY awful on my connection lately. I know it's bad but I hate how the quality of internet decides to shits itself even if I reboot my iPad and I know it's not my iPad. >:c 
But anyway, it's the week before the Holidays and I've been thinking a lot mostly about stuff I would like to write for my page, and I know...if my gallery filled up anymore it would leave readers in a tizzy. 
I know I've been putting Grim Co. and Jezebel Killer on a super long hiatus, and I'm very sorry for that, and I've placed other ideas on the shelf for later because my muse is connected to how life has been affecting me. If something emotionally breaking effects me, it hurts my thought process considerably like a computer crash. It makes it really worse since I suffer from depression and anxiety, which is I ended up derailing myself. I need my enthusiasm back. I need to feel happy writing and doing what I do in order to cope and endure anxiety. So, readers and watchers, I hope you understand. My mental health is very complicated and writing stories has been a venting and coping mechanism since Middle School. My mother has had stupidly high standards that I can never live up to, and she and I often butt heads but I often get gas lighted or scape goated. 
And since I'm on dA and have had this gallery since '07, I consider my stories close enough to be my children in a way. Some stories had to be cut off due to lack of interest or I couldn't cut past the block but I assure you, Grim Co., Jezebel Killer, Vampire Collective, Echoing Whispers and a bunch of others are not on the chopping block. They're just on hold until I can get through their writing blocks because of my depression.

Phew, I'm so glad I got that out of my system.

And now here's the thing I wanted to discuss, mostly, Bastial. Bastial's my second GMD fan character/oc since I first settled into my childhood fandom but I couldn't get his series "Neo Verda London Chronicles" going because I made it up to chapter 6 and I was at college at the time and I dropped out...I was shamed by mother in the van and that made my motivation to continue his backstory chapters to a sudden halt. 
When you sob in your bed every night for weeks it's almost impossible to get passed the art block but my depression obliterated that art block and made it into a metal wall I couldn't get passed. But, I'm thinking of making a new Bastial series where it's him going on bounties and figuring out mysteries and his backstory is pieced together by memories of the past and meeting his Bandit dad Conthel. 
The Bastial series I intended to make.
And speaking of cool series, who always wanted to see Basil and Darkwing working together? I always wanted to see Disney make a noir-ish Basil and Drake law partnership but...not all dreams do come true so I'm making this one myself. I don't want to hear "someone on fanfiction.net all ready made it" because I want this. >:c Also it's been a while since I used Darkwing. And the only time I mentioned him was that he was one of my influences in making Bastial. So in a weird way Bastial is Drake's and Basil's weirdo love child. 
I'm still fleshing out plot, but a few villains from Darkwing Duck will be in it including Megavolt and Bushroot. But I'm making a few fowl or duck related villains of my own to make things interesting. I'm never gonna top Duckthulu though.  

So, it's been a while since I've been making a journal entry but the first half is me thanking you guys for the birthday wishes. ^^ Seriously, I'm really happy you guys can stand me and my flaws, and I am so so sorry about my project jumping. Due to how my life is coupled with my depression and ADHD I don't have the focus like I used to. And now here is the other half of my journal entry, thanking booze, mostly Smirnoff Ice Green Apple. I found out being tipsy when you feel like shit really makes you feel better. My inferiority complex from the accumulation of emotional abuse just goes away when I feel drunk. Also I heard there's a thing called apple rum I would love to try someday. 
I hope I'm not coming off as an alcoholic, sometimes my Zoloft just doesn't cut it, and I'd like to forget how my family treats me like trash and call me stupid, and my mom keeps rubbing in how my cousins and relatives (or sometimes friends) have married, or have kids.
Well, booze is currently my best therapist ever, fuck you mom. >:c 
/Also I have tokophobia 

Cherilyn Ohlau